Day Three

Noting that I have less to say this time. So far anyway ;)

Surprised to notice that I'm beginning where I left off last time. Presence. Shamanic power. Spruce tips beer :)

Now it seems I have more questions than anything else: I love connecting more deeply with Life. Is that a worthwhile pursuit? How do you measure its worth? Is this chant and mediation practice that I'm doing a meaningful, efficacious, and safe practice?

I'm noticing signs of what I now think is kundalini shakti moving when I sit - just a gentle rocking and swaying. It's happened before. Wasn't too worried about it until this morning when I read Georg Feurstein relate the story of Gopi Krishna - who had a spontaneous kundalini awakening when he wasn't ready yet. Apparently if the energy moves through the ida or pingala instead of shushuma nadi you get all kinds of crazies and illness..."immense havoc in the body and mind." Tantra, The Path of Ecstasy - Georg Feurstein. "A timeless warning to all neophytes dabbling with the serpent power, or shakti." Id.

Great.

So is this practice I'm doing enough? Can anything useful be done without close supervision of a teacher? Or too much? Should I be under close supervision of a teacher? My old New Agey mix and match, "take what I like and leave the rest" strategy that I've relied on for sooooo long is slipping under my feet.

Worried about zealotry and insanity. Or both.

Grrrrr... I guess it's time to throw those worries on the fire. Plus unnecessary resistance to trust myself and others. And self doubt. Refine these to healthy discernment.

Yeah. Let's see how that goes....